Alex Is Semi Dark Sometimes

Hate

2006-04-25T20:53:00.000-07:00

Sadness, Darkness, Down!

All objects in sight I hate.
I hate everyone,
I despise everything,
I resent life.
All is dark when messages go out to pull the plug,
PLEASE!
Why? Why can't the fire be extinguished?
Why can't the sun burn out?
Why can't life be taken away from me?
I HATE IT!
Please free me of it.
Corruption all around.
Hypocrisy behind every smiling face.
Suffering all around.
Can't I just die?
PLEASE?!
Kill me soon, PLEASE!
please...

Hole in My heart

2006-04-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

A hole in my heart,
it's black
it's bleeding
it's hurting,
A hole in my heart.

A hole in my soul,
it's aching
it's miserable,
i'm crying inside,
A hole in my heart.

A hole in my life,
destroying me,
leaving me lonely,
hurting me deeply,
A hole in my heart.

My life's falling apart,
i'm dying
i'm crying
i'm in pain!
I'm drying up,
feelings diminishing,
No! But..... yes...
an absolute neccessity
Damn... I'm Dying...Hurting....Crying....Aching...

I'm falling into this hole of mine,
i see darkness
i feel lifeless
i smell rot
i taste bitterness,
I hear..... I hear-Wait!
I can't hear anything but silence.

I am in this hole in my heart.
This is where you previously were.
Where there was previously light.
Where there was happiness!
Where there was love!
Now...
Sadness,
utter sadness.

Dark...
Sad...
Dead...

Quarantined Quail

2006-03-27T19:57:00.000-08:00

well, I saw V for Vendetta (the movie), and I was inspired to write with VERY VERY strict alliteration.. So here it goes. I would like some input.

Quickly quacked querulous questions!

Questionable quorum qualifications quite quietude.

Quisling!

I still hear the Quartet quietly!

The 3 liner takes Form in Maximize Emotions

2006-03-27T18:48:00.000-08:00

All that piano and new black paint there.
The object definition window displays table and field.
But where is the chair and carpet?
Was it some money suddenly come into?
The form you'll create will be a bound form.
Ropes, twine, and handcuffs forever.
Or some extravegence some love come into.
If necessary, click the maximize button on the form window to maximize the window.
And then you die a deadly death.
Or old cake on an impulse not to care.
In the database window, click forms in the objects bar to display the forms list.
And finally you realize your name is Claire.

3 liner untouched and original!

Should I Mention.... Diabolic Intention Anal Retention Suspension... Hold; It's a Monologue!

2006-03-27T18:07:00.000-08:00

My Son, If you need me I will be there, no one shall hinder your progress!
I will be your guidance, your father, and your power!
Damien's eyes become watery, tears of joy roll down his face.
If you need me just call and I will come forth...
Damien is now lost for words. His ecstatic state is preventing the use of his vocal chords.
All these hypocrites, fakes, rats, snakes, and dream defferes must be terminated,
Yes! they are my children but, your progress cannot be hindered my dear child.
Damien is now moving his lips in an attept to speak but emotion has diminished his sense of presence!

Unhappy Places for Fake People

2006-03-27T18:02:00.000-08:00

...Or we could be in Heaven and i will make you sick of happy people...

Happy people... O' so nice, but they can be tiring...so jolly, so nice, so happy.... SO FAKE! It is impossible to be that happy all the time.

Heaven? Why can't it be natural? O' so happy is O' so annnoying!

Do you not think I can make you sick of happy people?

But... we wouldnt be able to be in heaven, I'm not getting there. I really don't think you are either.

Heaven is for Goody Too Shoes!

Devil's Advocate - A monologue by the man himself

2006-03-27T17:49:00.000-08:00

I don't like anyone to watch me!
he pulls off his black cloak
Stop staring at me in this stretcher. Do you not know who I am of what I will to do you?
he clenches his fists hard
If you havent noticed, MY SOUL IS BLACK!
Spiritually, I will crush you!
the pentagram he had under his shirt is now exposed
Yea they are your eyes! but who gives a damn?
They are my hands and I can behead you with them...
We are not in the middle east
he motions a Yamulka on his head
but I will do you just as bad.
We can be in Hell and i will torture you...
Or...
We could be in heaven, there I will make you sick of happy people...
I can send a million watchful eyes and see how you like!
DON'T FUKIN LOOK AT ME!
he spits

Just a little message.

2006-03-20T23:25:00.000-08:00

Hey, my story will soon be done!

But more importantly, enjoy the nice poetry while it lasted! The next ones will be just as dark as the ones before! That's just me though.. sorry.. but either u like it or ya dont! Same with me, either ya like me or ya hate me!

Enjoy!

-Alex-

Shhh... Listen

2006-03-20T23:18:00.000-08:00

Needy,
Someone is needed.
Wanted,
Someone is wanted,
you.

You, why can't you be here?
Why can't you be near?
It is a feeling for which I cannot bear.

There!
No!... I...Thought...I.... saw you...over there.

Come,
Please lemme see you
Come,
I need to see you
Wait,
I can't wait to see you
Wait,
I am going to wait to see you.

Quiet.....

MIX UP

2006-03-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

Here is a little something that is unusual for me.... But lets see how you like it!

For it is you that my heart yearns.
It is your smell my lungs miss.
My body misses the touch of your hand.
My eyes need your illuminating smile.

I miss your hugs
My heart misses the happiness felt with you
My lips miss your lips
My lips miss your taste.

My body misses yours!

But.....But..... Where art thou?
My heart yearns thee!
Thy presence is imperative to me!

Thou's beautifulness my central core misses.
The happiness that filled my heart has ran!

I wanna see you.
I want to touch you.
I wanna smell you.
I wanna hold you.
I want you in my presence.

I wanna see you - I want to touch you - I wanna smell you - I wanna hold you - I want you in my presence.

Abstract

2006-03-07T12:55:00.000-08:00

This week Damien has thrown old pictures, food, old used condoms, ex's panties, his computer, his bedsheets, his high school yearbook, his perfectly perfect powerful pastry producer, his old underwear, a crack pipe, old sneakers, his girlfriend, his brother, his job, his dignity, his bravery, his confidence, his skin, his mouth, his happiness of beong happy in hopeful situations, his celibacy, his....

The wastebasket is not really there!

A lil sum sum

2006-03-07T12:36:00.000-08:00

He was the kind of guy who...

screamed
was rude
was contradictive
loud
stupid
I hate
I love to hate
resembles my father
loves to eat
loves to dance
loves music
hates noise
fought for his country
was a punk
was scruffy
was badly groomed
hit women
women hated
guys hated
loved to be in control
was a dictator
had many friends
had no style
was anorexic
ran
was selibate
loved christ
worshipped satan
loved to model
was easily angered
hated writing
all the girls loved...

Abstracts

2006-03-07T12:30:00.000-08:00

FrEeDoM... HaTrED... HyPOCrisY...

*HyPOCrisY bombards our nation wearing a pretty pink dress fooling one with beauty.

*HaTrED runs with people with a death mask on making me loath you more.

*FrEeDoM is given to many dressed in pretty please with a cherry on top trying to escape every possible way!

My Workshop Pieces

2006-02-15T12:36:00.000-08:00

Hey guys... My workshopping pieces are about 2 posts below this one... One titles "Black" the other titles "Black Death"

More stuff to be posted on here before Friday... Hope you guys enjoy the pieces and feel free to criticize harshly if necessary, it would not bother me one bit... Criticism whether good or bad is always ultimately good/helpful!

And remember... Impetuous Writing is Always the Best Writing!

-Alex

Hey here my post, i decided to experiment with HTML

2006-02-09T20:11:00.000-08:00

okay here it is guys... iNPUT YOUR RESPONSES PLEASE! it will be completely anonymous.... i will not know who sent it.....

Black

2006-02-08T15:43:00.000-08:00

Black
A black corridor awaits,
Awaits this figure,
The figure is all black…
Black,
Hollow,
Colorless,
This black corridor is isolated,
Isolated from sunlight…
Only the night has access to this corridor,
Sunshine has lost its key.
The key maker ha died.
A duplicate can no longer be made.
Black…
Lifeless,
Drained,
Black…
The corridor awaits…
Awaits for he who is damned!
The corridor is dark…
The energy to shine has burnt out!
It starts drizzling…
But wait… There’s no drain!
The water starts to accumulate,
Thunder and lighting commence.
The rain starts to fall harder,
A pond begins to develop,
The corridor then becomes full of water.
Black water!
Water that is black!
This figure then proceeds through the water…
It is his home!
Filth!
Dirt!
Rot!
The figure then sits in the middle of the corridor…Black…
And he awaits…
He awaits in black!

Black Death

2006-02-08T15:39:00.000-08:00

I’m dying
Slowly but surely, I’m dying
A very slow…Patient death
It’s rising in me…
First thing to die – My Heart
After that – My Soul
Then…My Body…
Dying,
Drying up,
Detaching myself from the world,
My feet become Black,
They have now died.
I fall,
I am a helpless half corpse,
GREAT!
The hair on my legs fall off…
So does my penis,
My legs then proceed to turn Black,
Damn, I’m dying,
My intestines pour out across the room,
My abdomen turns Black,
It has died,
I’m dying…
I can’t breathe,
I cough up Black lungs,
They have died…
Damn, I’m dying,
My hands and arms turn Black,
The fall off, They die,
I’m Dying…
My head turns Black,
It’s dying…
I’m dying…
I’m Dead,
But why can I still think?
The though of you has somehow kept me ALIVE,
Yet,
The thought of you has also killed me,
Damn, a lose, lose situation,
Damn, What to do?
I died a Black death.

Sober

2006-02-06T17:35:00.000-08:00

Sober
As a man
Today is a crazy day
Only God can judge me
Except for Chuck Norris
Before Chuck Norris goes to sleep
Give him a good night kiss
For being such an asshole
I'm running out of things to say
A common problem
persuasively pursuing passive people
Working in the corporate world
I could never do it
If I didn't put my mind to it
Like I rarely do anyways
Sex is optional in my life
Not in mine
Beer is good
Beer is great
But tastes like crap
And I've tasted that before
But I liked it a lot
Which of course indicated brevity
I'm running off into hell
To see my brother SATAN! ... And to say hi
Not before Jesus comes by and slaps the shit out of him
Cause that's just the way he rolls

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*UNEDITED*
*Straight from paper to blog*
*Class Lines*

2006-02-06T17:30:00.000-08:00

This Is Me.... It's Jesus

The GaThErInG

2006-01-31T20:25:00.000-08:00

In response to "Total Eclipse", I wrote this poem...

Major Construction is on its way.
Troops are being rallied up...
The Materials have already been GaThErEd
A new sun must be erected...
A new sun will be erected!
A total block on the sun will commence to a partial block.
This sun will shine through my world only.
A total eclipse under construction for the rest of mankind.
Corruption, Deceit, and Falsification must be paid back in full.
This Light is all mine BITCH!
Fuck You all!
Fake ass gremlins!
Ha!
Whose reigning Now?

Total Eclipse

2006-01-30T10:32:00.000-08:00

It's this deceptive sunshine that fools me...
Bright, Hot, and Beautiful!
It burns constantly,
makes one fell warm inside.
This sun caresses one as if it were ones significant other.
But.....
If this sun were to be scrutinized,
one would realize that this sun is not really there.
This sun is merely an illusion,
created.....
brought about in times of loneliness.
Damn!
But Why?
Fools one to believe in its comfortness.
This Sun must be extinguished!
Although darkness will follow thereafter,
Happiness must be achieved.
A TOTAL eclipse must be arranged.
It must be submerged in contradiction.
Reflect its own light against it...
Its image must be mirrored.
A tourniquet must be applied to its source of power,
SHUTDOWN!
DEMOLISHED!
BOMBARDED!
...
A TOTAL eclipse is on the way!
A TOTAL eclipse will be arranged!
A TOTAL eclipse will soon occur...
DIE!!!